Monday, December 3, 2012

College...Mission... Life

I think it's time for me to take some time and reflect. It has been quite some time since my last post, which isn't a huge deal because I'm not one of those viral bloggers that people feed off or anything, I have just learned through the years that it is important for me to reflect on the past and write it down. You might ask if I keep a journal, that's a definite no... but maybe someday I will. I'll try to put some pictures in here, but for now. This is just me writing down my life's story.

When I returned home from my mission, I wasn't necessarily as stable as I would have preferred. Returning home 6 months early definitely wasn't the easiest experience, nor one that is desired by any young man who goes and serves a mission. However, I wouldn't have it any other way. This past year I have truly learned more about myself than I think I could have given any other circumstance. I have always believed that everything happens for a reason, and the experiences I have had since being home have undoubtedly confirmed that belief.

Life is full of ups and downs, if it weren't that way, life would be lame! My original plan for the fall term was to stay in Fresno, go to Fresno City, and coach volleyball at Clovis North. It was a perfect set-up, and I'd make tons of money...not really, but sufficient. I knew it was a good choice, but I couldn't help thinking that it wasn't the best. The Lord definitely has guided me time and time again, deciding where to go to school was definitely His doing. The spirit kept pressing me to find a way to get to Utah (I know.. the land of the Mormons). However, I am an absolute advocate of this place. I much prefer to have a career in Fresno, but for now, Utah has been where I need to be. I was accepted, gracefully, into the LDS Business College. I had heard many great things about this school, and my wonderful aunt and uncle have allowed me to live in their home. It's so great, I love it, and them!

One of the greatest parts of LDS Business College is the emphasis they put on the spirit teaching us. I took this to heart from the very first day. I knew there was something I needed to personally learn there. Mind you, the spirit consistently pressed me to get the wheels turning towards going back out on my mission and finishing honorably. The first month or so of school, every assignment in which I was required to ponder and let the spirit guide my learning, I was pressed to return to the mission. I learned about myself, about why I am the way I am, and why I do the things I do. Ultimately, I decided to return to the mission field, and would do whatever was required of me to do so. Funny side note- going to the gym every day and turning my brain off from all the outside cares allowed me many hours of reflecting, and the ultimate conclusion that I want to return. I actually sent the text to my Stake President letting him know that I was ready to get back. That's just for my sister-in-law though, she likes to hear how much I go to the gym. :)

Did I mention how much I love school? I have the greatest teachers. I have definitely confirmed that I want to be an English teacher/coach. That's my calling in life. I know it... so I'm going to chase it, once I finish my mission, of course. My English teacher has definitely been one of the most inspirational teachers I have had. She has helped me out a ton and helped me grow in my learning and writing. She ensured me that she would still be around when I return and to keep in touch after my mission so that she can help me get the ball rolling! Have you ever thought about the people that are placed in your life at any given time? There have been countless individuals who have come in to my life and have led me in the direction that the Lord wants me to go. God definitely know's me, and the type of people to place in my life, because time and time again He has led me through them. So to those of you who have been one of God's helpers in my life, thank you.

This past year since being home, I have been able to remove the thickest and strongest of chains that were bringing me down each and every day. Only through the grace of the Lord, Jesus Christ and His Atonement has that been possible. I hope to one day be able to help others around me, and to always be a positive  example in peoples lives. I can't stand having grudges or harsh feeling towards others. It's funny because even though I say that, I'm a hypocrite. I have a long way to go in this life, but I do try to improve myself daily. I think I'll put some pictures in now.

The Salt Lake City Temple..

Solitude, Comfort, Peace.. I took this one day just sitting, waiting for some friends for brunch! 

Fresno People... :) 

We always stick together. 


My cousin Coleman..
Definitely grew as best friends while living with this kid! 

Sidney and Matti...
Through good and bad... I really do love them both. 

My boy Taylor.
He's a huge example to me. Thanks man. 

Man-Period...
Story of my life.

My brothers.
Shooting one day. It's good to be with them.

FAMILY PICTURES!
Not my favorite activity, but we look good I think :) 

Brooke! 
This about sums up our friendship. Don't hate me for putting a pic of you k?

P.P.P.
The Brotherhood Reunited... These guys give me strength.

There you have it. Love it, hate it. Life's fantastic. Have a great day and always remember:
"I will be on your right hand and on your left, and my Spirit shall be in your hearts, and mine angels round about you, to bear you uo." - Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior.

Friday, May 11, 2012

I Can Only Imagine..

I'm sitting here, listening to the song "I Can Only Imagine," by Mercy Me. I was just paroozing through peoples blogs and what not, and was just simply overcome with a feeling of love and peace. 

You might possibly wonder WHY in the world I put THIS picture. I don't really know..  I just LOVE the temple and think it will come out as the best choice for what I might have to say for this post!... if anyone reads this! 

I just marvel at the fact that one day, i'll be able to live FOREVER with my family. I can only imagine what it will be like. I love my family. My immediate family, of course, as well as my extended family. The photo above was taken at my cousin, Jake Probert's wedding. It truly was a blast having all the family there. I don't really know how to explain it- but I feel when I am together with my family, whether it be in large groups, or just my own family, I get a small glimpse of what heaven will be like. It's super hard to get this all straight and flowing, so I apologize. I suppose I'm just filled with the spirit right now, and usually when that happens to me- I write. SO today I'm doing a new blog post...it HAS been a while! 

I can only imagine,
What it will be like,
When I walk by Your side.
I can only imagine what my eyes will see,
When Your face is before me.
I can only imagine.


I love those lyrics, and this picture. I've found myself sitting on a bench surrounded by beautiful scenery and beautiful views, feeling as though this picture were true. I've learned so much about myself since I've returned from serving in the Canada Calgary Mission. The ULTIMATE lesson that's been prevalent, is this; I can not be who I want to be through my own merits. Alone I can do nothing. With the help of the Lord- I can do all things. In order to receive His help though, I have to surrender my all- and give it back to Him. 


So, I am. Each and every day is a battle to become better, to prove what I let myself become wrong. To allow myself to be what I was sent here to be!... to quote another song... "I came to win, to fight, to conquer, to thrive, I came to win, to survive, to prosper, to rise, to fly." I don't quote those to sound arrogant or egotistical, because those things are all directed at one person alone. The big bad man downstairs. 


Does this post even make sense?! I don't even know... but I know i'm enjoying just writing and putting my thoughts into words, and putting it in a place I know I can return to and read later..and hopefully will benefit from! That's why I try to keep a journal.. i need to be better though! 


Romans 12:21
-Find Joy in the Journey! 
--Ster

Friday, March 30, 2012

A Glimpse of Canada, Eh!?


This is the border of British Columbia, which is West of Alberta. 


This is what hiking in BC looks like! :) 


One of my BEST friends in the mission..Elder Park!


Baptism of Owen Tuckey... "How Great shall be your joy!"


Downtown Calgary @ Night!! 


Karen's Baptism... She was my Mom in the mission! I love her! I recently got an e-mail from her saying that in the next couple of months, her and her husband will be going through the temple! 


Pres. & Sis. Archibald! My Heroes!! 


Well, There's a couple of pictures from my mission! Things are going absolutely wonderful for me right now in life. Looking through these pictures SERIOUSLY made me miss being in Canada, but that's all good! It's time to get life going forward and continue doing what's right! 

In regards to my mission, i'll never be able to repay the Lord for all the wonderful experiences and lessons that I experienced while there. Elder Christofferson of the 12 spoke to our mission last April and said that when we return home, we can in NO way feel like the Lord owes us ANYTHING! I can honestly say that I feel even MORE indebted to the Lord now than I ever have in my entire life. I know my story is a little different than most, but I still cherish each and every moment that my mission offered me! 

Hopefully I'll be better about posting and keeping my life up to date on here... even if nobody reads anything, it'll be good for me! Like a journal! :) 

Anyway. I hope all is well for everyone! FIND JOY IN THE JOURNEY!