Friday, September 5, 2008

A new idea

well for a while i decided blogs were somewhat...weird. it's almost like a journal basically being published on the internet, which i find perfectly fine... but for me, i know that hardly anyone ever reads this if anyone at all so i just write it for my own personal gain. i have found that when i write down my feelings it makes me feel happier, and for some reason invites the spirit. i cannot explain how much of a difference things change when doing this. i know, call me a freak, but its the truth. i can't write much..but i figured i'd start out...

Thursday, April 10, 2008

...I Found The Love...

To be 100% honest I thought that nobody would even read my blog until my cousins left comments...thanks! anyway, this week has so far been a pretty dang good one. I actually haven't really done anything that great or had anything miraculous happen. I did get a new backpack, thats pretty fun. Oh! today in choir (yeah, I sing) the Drama teacher (yes i was in a play) walked over to me while I was playing the piano and said that my hair looked really good and that I looked good. Some people may have found this to be a little bit AWKWARD but for me, I just laughed and said "Hey you too...I like the whole...yeah" and she knew I was totally lying but its all good! So I think that it is pretty dang amazing how much I have found that I actually do love people. For instance, my P.E. class is called Cross Age Tutoring. This is where we go to the elementary schools and teach p.e. to the first threw third graders. Yes, there are some whom get on my nerves at times because they refuse to listen but I never have gotten mad at them. I was walking to go meet up with my next class and I was just thinking to myself how amazing these little children really are! I actually do love them and care about them. I will admit that I don't always do exactly as the lesson plan says and they aren't getting the full physical part of P.E. but hey, we have fun! I don't know why but whenever I am writing in this whole blog thing so many thoughts just come to my head. It is kind of crazy! but I love it!! So remember how I somewhat mentioned the former co-chair in my last blog? well I have a little story to tell... He is the kind of guy who comes off as stuck up and can be immature at times (who can't?) I honestly could not stand him. Whenever we happened to be at the same place I was just in a horrible mood and was only thinking about how much he annoyed me. So, at EFY which was amazing by the way! Kenneth Cope was the guest speaker and holy cow! but I will get to that later! One of the first talks that were given was on how amazing WE are. WE being our spirits and who we really are. Also how our bodies are just hiding the real us. The spirit basically said to me forget about myself and learn to love everyone! so, that night at the super awesome dance I went up to him and was all dude look, to be completely honest I like hated you before we got up here. I was just really apologetic towards him. That is basically the jist of it... so on to how amazing this efy was! I already said about the first talk and how our bodies are trash and they are hiding how amazing our true selves, our spirits, are. I don't know if you have heard of Kenneth Cope but to be honest, his music is amazing! Pretty much all music is amazing to me but there was this one song "Gethsemane" that he sang on the last day and I basically cried...alot! I actually had alot of chances to talk to him and I don't know how he does it but he remembers basically everyones name that he meets! haha... for the fun part of EFY, we had all the different companies, my color was purple and our name was "Sweet is the work" we were an amazing group, to be honest I thought it was going to be a pretty not good group in the begining but it turns out we were amazing! we won the SPUNITY award. If you have no clue what that is it is spirt and unity put together, basically the all around best group! I don't know what got into me but I went like crazy at EFY, I was so hyper for some reason...I like lead the cheer which I won't lie was pretty dang legit! anyway, it was an amazing EFY and I actually saw it change peoples lives. here i am again haha, talking about how amazing the church is! I just can't get enough of it! or the Book of Mormon! holy cow that book... changes my life every day! So, I don't know what else I really want to say on here...the Elephant Love Medley at the bottom...pick it and listen to it! its so bomb!! or Arrival to Earth...that one is good too, basically all songs are good! to any of you who read this, thankyou! it means alot! I LOVE YOU!!

Monday, April 7, 2008

A New Day

Well today was the day i officially became a BlOgGeR! Yes I had a Myspace and have a Facebook, but this completes the whole blogging experience I believe! I was introduced to this whole ordeal mainly by my cousin Nate. However, I know that basically their whole family does this so my thanks goes out to the Probert family!
This weekend Me and Parker and a bunch of his friends took a quicky road trip up to Utah. Mainly for conference, I think...anyway, I spent much of my time with the family which for me was the main reason I attended the whole road trip. I got to see Seth I think last week before he leaves and I wanted a chance to be able to see Coleman. While in Utah, I would say that it was a very exciting and fun trip. I hung out with Chase Chan and Matti on Friday night and saw a movie. On Saturday I hung out with Coleman, and also had the opportunity to go to the Priesthood session at the conference center. It was amazing! However, I must admit that I did fall asleep for the first half hour or so, I was pretty dang tired! Before the session, Coleman and I were debating on even going or not. I have to say I am so glad i went. Usually when I dont want to go to a church meeting I push myself more to want to go because I know that there is something I need to hear. At the Priesthood session, there were many great talks given. I'm sure that mostly everyone has heard about how amazing President Monson is at wiggling his ears haha! I went to the session feeling somewhat happy, but when I left I was filled with the spirit and in a great mood. It's pretty amazing, the spirit. It's also pretty amazing how you can go from such a spiritual high down to feeling no love and feeling the evils of Satan among you in such a short period of time.
I haven't really ever been too open about my spirituality and the aspects and teachings of the church until earlier this year. Only a short while ago I had never gotten up in sacrament meeting to bare my testimony. Now I sometimes feel like I get up too much haha, but every time I get up not only is it a strengthening experience to me but there is always one person who says that it really meant something to them. That always makes me feel good to hear things like that. Recently I have been trying my best to finish the Book of Mormon for the first time on my own. I feel it a nessecary goal in my life right now. I was recently called to be co-chair in my stake. If you have no clue what that means, we are basically in the same boat haha. But from what I do know, it means I and 2 other girls (1 other co-chair and 1 secretary) are in charge of all the stakes activities for the youth. Our main being EFY during spring break. One of the things the co-chair from last year has told me is that I will be tempted more than I ever have before. Seeing as this is only the begining and I haven't had any responsibilities yet, I can forsee alot of extremely trying days. I have already felt the evils of Satan working upon me at the times when he knows I am most volnerable. I have already prayed and read my scriptures more than ever in my life. Sadly, I know I can do better. This calling I have accepted and commited to give my all to is going to prepare me more for my mission than anything else could. I already feel love for others that I haven't felt before. I know that the love I feel for the other people comes from my Heavenly Father. I have already become more open to talking and discussing thing of the church with people and actually I am sometimes the one to bring them up. I love it, all of it. Well, there is alot more that I really want to say but to be honest, I am still a little tired from that 11 hour drive from good old Utah!:) anyway, I love you all!